back by popular demand....

hello so i was told to update by an incredibly sexy man. and one cannot argue with the sexiest of all sexy men (tee hee lol) so here i am updating. so this is what we shall talk about today.

1. Pitch
2. School
3. Rugby
4. Job
5. Summer plans

1. so pitch was really good, i mean aside from the freezing cold and the rain and the crazy A.D.D speaker it was good. we had a new campsite and it was bigger and i think i like it better. it wasnt as muddy as stayner and there was more bathrooms and more indoor places to go. so yeah at pitch there was movies to watch and dance clubs and sports and music and bands and it was really fun. And George came so that was awsome and Cass and Mack were there and Nat and Chris. it was really good. we had like a couple threesome going. not threesome in that way! gosh take your mind out of the gutter! lol and there was swimming which may be the highlight to my weekend and mmmm warm pool. and sauna lol it was good it was a really nice simming pool. yup. and the sessions were good i guess. i'm not gonna lie, i slept through 3/4 of them . lol i was really tired and with a person to lean on it made sleeping a whole lot easier. overall pitch was good, i look forward to next year.

2. School is killing me slowly. again. well what with all the summatives and stuff piling up and exams looming ever nearer. i just wrote a biology test that covered 3 chapters and nat and krystle and i presented our World History summative on the same day. its a good thing i didnt have rugby practice that day or else i would have died. here is a list of things that i still need to do for school.

• World history essay
• english media summative thingy
• read duddy and do timeline and movie review
• gym summative
• random other crap and daily homework
• start studying for bio exam

so yeah. i'm DOOMED! yup :)

3. ok i would like to take the time to write this out: I AM NOT PLAYING RUGBY NEXT YEAR! now you may be wondering why i say that because i really like the sport. however i cant stand the practices during this time of the year and rugby is starting to annoy me . like i just cant handle it, what with school work and job and stressed and other things that i'm in, rugby just cant fit. i mean at the beginning of the season rugby was like my #1 priority and now i kinda just really dont like it. no i love the actual sport.. but i hate the practices. they are soo long! YEESH!. anywho we are doing really well this season. we started off a little rocky but tomorrow (monday) we are playing Glenviewpark for whe WCSSA (sp?) finals YAY. we have to win and get the gold medal! but regadless of weather we win or not we go to CWOSSA and yeah. and hopefully our season finishes on wednesday. so i can be free of that stress.

4. OK BIG NEWS ON THE JOB FRONT! ok lets just give some background info. well because of rugby i have only been able to work on weekends and because of things such as Conference, Relay for life, and Pitch i havent been able to work on the weekends either. like this is the first full weekend that i have been able to work since like april. and yeah i kinda got in trouble for that. and also because my credit blend was low which is the lamest thing ever. A credit blend is the percent of how many customers that come throught your till that use their HBC credit card with the rewards card. and somehow its my fault if they dont. so yeah. so today i QUIT! i handed in my 2 weekes notice. well i gave them untill June 9th because i cant work on the 10th anyways so yeah. i'm soo excited. there is another stress out of my hair. and ill find a job soon ill just tell them that i cant start untill school is over. tee hee ... no more smelly zellers! WOOT!

5. my summer plans.. oh i have soo many. well i plan on getting ajob so i can do all the stuff i want. i also plan on visiting George in Manitoba and i plan on getting my g1 and i want to get a tattoo. and visit my godfather in Pickering and hang out with natalie and cass and i want to start volunteering at the hospital and yeah! i need to keep busy this summer to minimalize the amount of time i have to sit and think and miss George. so yeah. ill try to stay busy. yup.

sooo thats my update. uh huh i hope you enjoyed it!. i love you all more than JELLO.

~iara

*ill find a way to see you again*

recently.....

so i need to do 2 things in this post, the first one is it tell you how my weekend went and the second one is to just vent so yeah.

1. so my weekend was awsome actually friday was my birthday and that went really well it was an awsome day. it was also relay for life wich was really really fun. there was movies and ppl to talk to, and cass and nat and ppl threw a party in a tent for me with cupcakes and strawberries and pull and peels lol i think it was the best party ever, and i got to wear a crown and septer and glow stick braclets and a necklace lol it was really cool, i felt special. it rained at relay but only in the beginning, just enough to soak the tents lol but not much sleep happened anyways so its ok. we shall all just make a note of bringing tarps the next time. then on saturday i worked on our lating seminar project with cass and nat and mack and chris were there too because we were making a movie. lol apparently its an interesting movie. ( i will hopefully find a way to be out of the classroom while it is playing lol ) and then i hung out with george and we went swimming at the swimplex, which was really fun and i got to wear my bathing suit for the first time, and i love it from the bottom of my heart. then we came back to my place and george bbq'd hamburgers. then on sunday i went to chuch and then i had to work from 1-6 but ended up staying until 6:30 which is poop. yup. and today was my mothers birthday and yeah i had school which was ok i guess, and i also had an eye doctors appointment which was fine, my perscription hasnt really changed and apparently my sight is well enought that when i get my g1 it wont say that i have to wear my glasses which is cool. i like having that freedom. tho they pu some drops in my eye to make my pupils dilate and yeah walking outside was interesting i could barely open my eyes cause it was soo bright. i wouldnt have been able to go to rugby practice anyway even if my appointment hadnt gone until like 4:20. which was really late and by that time there was no point to go to rugby, lol i could see anyways, yeah so i went home and took a nap seeing as my eyes were really tired and my body was tried, i had a late night talking to george on the phone until 1 am lol. but it was soo worth the lost sleep.
OMG grey's anatomy today almost killed me! yeah i amost died from the tension at times! but it was such a good season finale! ack i cant wait untill it comes back on! lol oh man i am soo excited about pitch on friday! its going to be awsome. i have to wash my laundry so i have something to wear while i'm there lol. tee hee it shall be fun.

2. ok here is where i do the whole 2 personality switch thing. sooo i have been thinking and i realised that i have nothing to look forward to this summer. aside from not having school. i have nothing planned i have nothing to do. i am one of those ppl that live from event to event. and i need something to look forward to in each day otherwise i am not a happy person that day, even if its something small like a doctors appointment or my favourite tv show. i need them. but then there are also the bigger events that i need. things like relay and pitch and wonderland and athletic banguet. i thrive on ecxcitment like that. and i realised that this summer i will have none of those things. in my head its almost like there is nothing to live for. now i dont mean that im gonna kill myself because i dont have any fun things to do, i just mean that often its gonna be hard to wake up on mornings and carry on through the day if i have nothing to carry on to. i mean i have to get a job but really thats all ill have. all my tv shows will be over and school will be done. as will events with school and youth group. cass will be working and i'm sure she will have her like week of time when she goes camping in her trailer with her family. and natalie has her 2 weeks or so when she will do that too. and i mean yeah i will hang out with them sometimes and stuff but then there will also be the time when they will want to hang out in groups with mack and chris, and even tho that can be a lot of fun they they are great ppl, i dont want to be a 3rd wheel or a 5th wheel. honestly the only thing worse than that is when you dont get invited to something just because its going to be a couple thing. i mean ill be a couple too its just that my other half wont be in the same province, which let me just say sucks so much, you have no idea ( unless you are george, cause then you know). anyways i was just sitting here today and listining to a song and finished watching greys anatomy and this feeling that i just needed a hug came over me. i just want somebody to tell me that ill be alright. that this summer will not be the worst summer ever. that ill make it through. thats all.

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A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty,
He said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....
and he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no.
She had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....
You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldn't cry if you left...I'd die...

missing you

yeok so i just need to write this out.
ok so today was a decent day aside from the fact that i stayed home sick because i was disgustingly sick. i stayed up till like 3 am coughing last night and this morning i was exhausted and gross feeling so i stayed home. and i spent the day vegging, watching tv and on the computer. then george surprised me with a strawberry frappiccino(sp?) which made my day. then i took a shower because i look like something found under a rock. and i got ready for youth which i had to go to becuase i planned on asking ppl if they wanted to sponsor me for relay for life. unfortunatly i forgot my envelope and yeah, but youth was good. i got a ride home from george and yeah. now here is where the problem kinda begins.

so i said goodbye to george at my door. and as i was closing the door it hit me that there goes one more day, one goodbye closer to the big one. and that made me kinda sad but idn it happens often now so i can deal with it w/e but then i was watching gilmore girls and it was a really good episode but omg it was like my situation exactly. Rory's bf was leaving for England for a year and she had to say goodbye and idn sorry i am probably making it sound really corney on here but it was soo sad to watch and i realised that i would be in that exact position in a little over a months time. the same crying heartbroken girl waving goodbye. and that just made me really sad. like i honestly don't know what i will do this summer. at the moment my life revolves around like 3 things, school, rugby, abd george,. by the summer school and rugby will be over and george will have moved. i will have nothing. and the only thing i have to replace all of that with is finding a job. so it better be a damn good job to even come close to filling the empty.
but really what am i going to do. and i realise that i probably sound like some pathetic creature pouting about how her boyfriend is her life and she cant live without him. but thats not me. its just that i love him soo much. and i know some ppl may think that i'm just being dramatic and we have only been dating forlike 3 months and thats too soon for love and stuff but yeah those ppl can go suck a pickle. because i do love him and i know that i do and there doesnt have to be a set time b4 you love somebody. but w/e anyways. i have to spend at least a year alone. i dont even know what i'm going to do with myself. really i dont. i'm going to miss him more than i can fathom, i missed him enough as it was going to conference for the weekend. and i have soo much to miss. i will make a list:

THINGS ABOUT GEORGE THAT I WILL MISS

ill miss the way he says things sometimes that have no point to them and when he realises it he says " ill shut up now", and the way he sometimes speaks out of one side of his mouth, or how his eyes look without his glasses on, and how he bounces slightly when he walks, and how he thinks that i look georgeous even when i'm sick, and how when i am sick he surprises me with things like flowers and drinks to make me feel better, how i feel completly safe with him, that he would do anything he could to make me happy, and that he listens to every one of my complaints (which are a lot) and never gets sick of me, and listens to everything i say as thought its the most important thing in the world, and remembers all the things that i point to in the mall and say that i want it, and that he is still amused by the wound i gave him by tackling him at church, and that he wants to be a good role model for his younger brother, ill miss his hugs and kisses, the way he uses big words and says things that i dont really understand cause he just soo gosh darn smart, the way he finds time to hang out with me as much as possible even when it means missing somthing else, his curly hair, and the way he fits into his shirts lol (so hot!), and the way he enjoys just going for a bikride or going for a walk,the way he laughs, ill miss spending time with him, holding his hand,hearing his voice, seeing him face to face.

there i feel better now. and i do realise that george will most likely be reading this, i just hope that i didnt embarass him, ah ill make it up to him if i did i promise. ok well its late and i should go to bed seeing as i am going to school tomorrow. and it is dance mania ( eek) ok well yeah i'm off.

*this has been a post brought to you by: iara's magic fingers*

conference weekend+ other things

soo conference was this weekend. it was pretty awsome, aside from the fact that i was like soo sick, between my like injured shoulder and having a cold and my asthma and the coughing fits that happened like every night for an hour and like randomly throughout the day. yet putting all that aside it was a good weekend. the skit went good and so did the fashion show. we placed 4th in the relay race and ppl from our school won awards for tests they wrote and creative things they submitted. it was really cool. i almost died after running the mini marathon. i was barely breathing. however i didnt let on to cassandra how bad it was or else she would have gone into calm panick concerned mode. which is slightly entertaining, but very effective. and also because i thought i would be ok. which i was in the end. o my goodness the food was awsome. it was like an all you could eat for every meal! and chocolate milk from like a never ending fountain and all the choices of food was mind boggling! i loved it. from the bottom of my heart. that is like the memory of a lifetime. i shall dream about it always lol. conference gave cass and nat and i a chance to have some good girl talking sessions and catch up on the going ons of each other. however i was glad to get back home on sunday, i wanted to sleep in my own bed and i missed george a lot. so luckily on sunday i managed to hang out with him for a good while, which i thouroughly enjoyed.
hmmmm sooo on friday it is my birthday! WOOT WOOT!. i will be one year away from being an adult which is a very scary thought. but thrilling at the same time. lol idn exactly what i want for my birthday tho. i could use some earings for both my cartilage piercing and my regular earing holes lol. or bellybutton rings are cool. ummm i want a ring but i want the ring to have a significance so scratch that idea. i like gift certificates to like chapters! i love those, or to the mall, or theaters or the soundtrack for the sisterhood of the traveling pants i would love you so much for that yeah. or i want a dog lol or a plane ticket to england. or anything cool and weird. OR OR ! A TOY! OMG i want a toy! if you can find a toy that would amuse me for longer than 15 mins i would love you for an eternity! yeah
ok on another note relay for life is on my birthday aswell. i still have to raise money for it. and i have no idea who to ask. i am doomed! officially. but it should be a lot of fun. i am excited. and the saturday after george and i are hanging out and possibly going swimming. if you would like to come swimming with us just leave a comment.
may 12 is also george and i's 3 month so that should be cool aswell ! YAY 3 MONTHS! WOOT
and then the next weekend is PITCH AND PRAISE! O MY GOODNESS I AM SOOO EXCITED for it! YAYAYAYAYA WOOO HOO! its going to be awsome, and its in a new place this year so lets hope that they have more than like 8 bathrooms for like 800 girls and that there is also more than 3 showers. and the good thing is there is a rec complex like a 15 min walk away so you know what this means! I"M BREAKING OUT THE BATHING SUIT! WOOO HOO! yes *does dance* i'm soo excited. i have to make sure that i have rock hard abs for that lol.
in other news school is killing me painfully and slowely i have summatives and projects coming out of my rear and there doesnt seem to be any signs of it slowing! i have project diareaha(sp?) lol but yeah like i have some latin summative to do on wednesday! i'm going to die!. sigh.
ok well thats all i hope you enjoy the update. i lurve you all!
BYE!

ps. i love spring i love seeing all the little newborn babies, they are soo cute. awww i want a baby. tho only for a little just because they are adorable. and i love them. but i want one. lol ok bye!