missing you

yeok so i just need to write this out.
ok so today was a decent day aside from the fact that i stayed home sick because i was disgustingly sick. i stayed up till like 3 am coughing last night and this morning i was exhausted and gross feeling so i stayed home. and i spent the day vegging, watching tv and on the computer. then george surprised me with a strawberry frappiccino(sp?) which made my day. then i took a shower because i look like something found under a rock. and i got ready for youth which i had to go to becuase i planned on asking ppl if they wanted to sponsor me for relay for life. unfortunatly i forgot my envelope and yeah, but youth was good. i got a ride home from george and yeah. now here is where the problem kinda begins.

so i said goodbye to george at my door. and as i was closing the door it hit me that there goes one more day, one goodbye closer to the big one. and that made me kinda sad but idn it happens often now so i can deal with it w/e but then i was watching gilmore girls and it was a really good episode but omg it was like my situation exactly. Rory's bf was leaving for England for a year and she had to say goodbye and idn sorry i am probably making it sound really corney on here but it was soo sad to watch and i realised that i would be in that exact position in a little over a months time. the same crying heartbroken girl waving goodbye. and that just made me really sad. like i honestly don't know what i will do this summer. at the moment my life revolves around like 3 things, school, rugby, abd george,. by the summer school and rugby will be over and george will have moved. i will have nothing. and the only thing i have to replace all of that with is finding a job. so it better be a damn good job to even come close to filling the empty.
but really what am i going to do. and i realise that i probably sound like some pathetic creature pouting about how her boyfriend is her life and she cant live without him. but thats not me. its just that i love him soo much. and i know some ppl may think that i'm just being dramatic and we have only been dating forlike 3 months and thats too soon for love and stuff but yeah those ppl can go suck a pickle. because i do love him and i know that i do and there doesnt have to be a set time b4 you love somebody. but w/e anyways. i have to spend at least a year alone. i dont even know what i'm going to do with myself. really i dont. i'm going to miss him more than i can fathom, i missed him enough as it was going to conference for the weekend. and i have soo much to miss. i will make a list:

THINGS ABOUT GEORGE THAT I WILL MISS

ill miss the way he says things sometimes that have no point to them and when he realises it he says " ill shut up now", and the way he sometimes speaks out of one side of his mouth, or how his eyes look without his glasses on, and how he bounces slightly when he walks, and how he thinks that i look georgeous even when i'm sick, and how when i am sick he surprises me with things like flowers and drinks to make me feel better, how i feel completly safe with him, that he would do anything he could to make me happy, and that he listens to every one of my complaints (which are a lot) and never gets sick of me, and listens to everything i say as thought its the most important thing in the world, and remembers all the things that i point to in the mall and say that i want it, and that he is still amused by the wound i gave him by tackling him at church, and that he wants to be a good role model for his younger brother, ill miss his hugs and kisses, the way he uses big words and says things that i dont really understand cause he just soo gosh darn smart, the way he finds time to hang out with me as much as possible even when it means missing somthing else, his curly hair, and the way he fits into his shirts lol (so hot!), and the way he enjoys just going for a bikride or going for a walk,the way he laughs, ill miss spending time with him, holding his hand,hearing his voice, seeing him face to face.

there i feel better now. and i do realise that george will most likely be reading this, i just hope that i didnt embarass him, ah ill make it up to him if i did i promise. ok well its late and i should go to bed seeing as i am going to school tomorrow. and it is dance mania ( eek) ok well yeah i'm off.

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