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ugh... stomach PAIN!!! ... note to self:

do not eat lying down EVER, i am not Roman

and therefor cannot handle hroizontal

digestion, its all about the up and down!

ouch , make the pain stop!

ok so yeah that is my painfull experience for the night so far, GAH... where is the boy! i need to talk to him and comfirm plans... if he doest come online or call... i will be forced to call him tomorrow... MORNING! muahahaha so yeah... GRR come online boy! ... and its too late to call his house, cause i will feel soo bad if i wake up his mother... sigh .... ok well i guess ill go now... ill catch you both later.

BYE!

tis the season

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

<3 me!

why does this have my life written in it?

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

what the hell is wrong with me....

why??!!

FRIG!.. why is it that everywhere i turn.. there is a couple holding hands! .. OMG.... there is nowhere to run... even the ppl who i thought would be the last to get a bf have one! OMG even the lesbians are taken! like geeze! i cant escape it! ... honestly.. why does it seem like everybody but me has a bf! UGH.. i feel so stinking lonely.. like seriously .. why cant I get a bf. am i that unwanted.. is it soo much to ask for.. like i'm not angry at the ppl who have bf's .. congrats to them.. good job i hope everything works out for the best.. but why cant i be one of them too.... sigh..

Every girl has that one boy that they'll never get over.That one who makes them laugh. The one who u get butterflies just when someonesays his name. That one who remembers the things u think u say are stupid and reminds u about it months from now. The one who has his name written all over ur heart. The one who u compare every guy to. That one boy who u nevercould get sick of talking about. The one that u cry over& over about.The one that no one can understand why him. that one everyone thinks u can do better.The one u ask to urself why her & not u. The one when u first saw him you knew that you loved him. The one that in some way ends up not being yours...

my thoughts exactly:

*when did breathing get so exhausting, i wish i could stop*

my weekend

so my weekend has been like this..

Friday night: i worked from 3:30-9:30 and then i spent the rest of the night bored outta my mind ... finally gave up and went to sleep

saturday: i woke up at like 12 , talked to natalie on the phone about when she was coning over, then i layed in my bed for a good little while, finally got out took a shower.. and vegged on the computer until natalie came lol an hour late .. lol but its ok she was helping her sister. then we "worked" on out bio project... lol not really .. but we did make some pretty cool plans lol. then i got ready for the concert... called cassandra and rob.... then left for katie's house.... accidentally took the #7 bus instead of the 9 .. got off at teh mcDonalds .. walked ot the school... stood at the 9 bus stop ..... called cass for katies number... but cassandra was actually going to katies too so che picked me up we went to katies house... then left for the concert.. got there ... saw the strangest ppl there .. saw Zima there and yeah... then concert... I LOVE HELLO KELLY! O MY GOODNESS!.... ok got their cd and a t-shirt and got them signed and me cassandra kt and kris all have to wear them om monday (tomorrow) ... lol.. i'm excited.. then i got home and pretty much vegged on the computer... for a couple hours... where i almost died from being worried and ugh.. by the time i went to bed i was completly exhausted physically and mentally.

sunday: i woke up... went to work.. worked... then came home .. sat on the computer and that is where i am now lol... later tonight i am expected to watch grey's anatomy, study for biology and more vegging on the computer. lol so yeah... that everything... ok well bye!

* there shoudl be a warning attached to ur 13th birthday. some thing like this:
WARNING the next 7 years of ur life will be the most confusing, saddest,exploratory,adventurous, happy, angering, years ever, procede at your own risk*



i guess its my turn to be strong