i am not ok
yes i'm willing to admit it. i'm not ok, i know that. i can fake it sometimes. and sometimes i get soo good at doing it that i believe it myself... but i know the truth...and it surfaces soon enough. i need to keep busy. being bored and at home along gives me too much time to realise what i'm missing....like sometimes everything will be pretty good, and then there is this thing that tells me something is wrong, something is missing and for a moment i dont know exactly waht it is....and then i realise and it all comes to me. or you know that feeling when something bad happened the night before and you go to sleep and the next morning as you wake up and realise what happened, and its like reliving it all over again.. w/e what does it matter......the only person who will read this is the person i'm missing most, cass and nat dont even write on their blogs anymore, they are both too busy......i wish i was.... anyways i'm gonna go attempt to do more math...
bye
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Hi. Yeah, guess what? I found your blog. *wicked laugh* Now I can see what you're up to. It sucks that you're feeling so rotten, but at least you can phone him, right? I know it's not the same, but hang in there, darling, he'll be back. He promised. I'll ttyl ok?
Hearts, Annie
nobody's ok... you're just one of the few who are honest about it. life kinda sucks for me, too. i miss you terribly... i sleep half out of boredom, and half becuase when i'm asleep i dream about things that are familiar, like Waterloo, my old friends, and you. it's not healthy, but it's me. i'm not ok either, i guess. just keep being honest with yourself about your situation, be ready to get help if you need it. i just might :s i miss you terribly
love always
Brahm
oh iara! ive been reading through some of your blogs and stuff since i havent been on here in a while. they are sooo sad!!! :(
since ive never been through what youre going through i cant really relate that well, but im here for you and we should hang out soon sometime!
you know, i was thinking back to your blog entries like a year ago and stuff and youve changed and grown a lot. im proud of you lol. that sounded gay. sorry haha.
lots and lots of love, molly xoxo
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