so i think my heart just froze over, and cracked down the center

hmmm... so.. anybody know how u mend a heart? ... i couldnt find any specific instructions in the medical books in my house... and the needle wont go through sometihng thats frozen.... glue will wash away once some ice melts and tape doesnt stick to wet... so i guess that leaves my heart in two........ oops..... it fell off the desk and shattered into about 50 pieces.... ill just scoop it into this ziplock bag, put it in my freezer ... and keep it as a souvenir to remind me of the days when life didnt smell so much like 8 day old ass excrements. yup. those were the good old days ... back when life didnt include boys,school,technology,work,crazy ppl, family stress.... ummm... breathing?... no it hasnt been bad for that long... ok yeah so

toronto yesterday... which might i just say rocked.... yup it was good... we took the train... then ate at shopseys and then shopped... met up with sofia... shopped some more....went to chapters ( while everybody went to see a movie) umm met up with may sister.. hung out with her for a bit... bought a cool hat... ate dinner at milestones... it was orgasmically good.... mmmm..... then.. met back up with the group... and pretty much got on the train home.... yup...

so the holidays have been good... christmas and what not..... rob visited... that was cool... new years was a little more sober than i would have liked it to be but it was still good.... and yeah.then toronto of course...and yeah now... so thats all ....

hmmm... you think frozen heart shards can still beat?... ill check it out....* lookes into ziplock* .. yeah they beat ... very very softly.... its more like a shudder....

so have i ever told you that boys are stupid.
have i ever told you that computers are very stupid.
have i ever told you that life is extremly stupid.
have i ever told you that somehow i deserve it all.

anyways i'm gonna be off.... ill probably go to bed..maybe read some of the book i bought in toronto. perhaps die...ok i wont die.. i cant help that i'm dramatic.. it just comes out.
anyways i'm out... bye

*when life gives you ass smelling lemons... forget the lemonade! shoot life in the head!*