how far would i get??

howdy
have u ever felt so ______ ( fill in negative feeling here) ... that u just wanted to cry or die or run far away from.........everything??..... yeah well that about sums up my feeling ... tho i dont know which one to do right now... which one would be most effective... running sounds pretty good... but how far would i get on $70... certainly not far enough...... .. no i need about 2000 for this trip.. enough to get me off of this continent... somewher that life cannot find me... somewhere that I cannot find me.... that would be far enough i suppose.... and i dont know if i have anybody to tell these things to...yes i know that i alwayse have u guys ( cass and nat) but u dont understand ... and its not like i would tell u the inner workings of my deepest soul cause i''m not like that.... and u would probably be soo horrified that u wouldnt talk to me again...and to do that i would need a sound proof room and a whole list of swear words to go thru a couple of times lol.. no i guess this blog thing is good enough... i can say that i'm _____ ( fill in negative feeling here) i just wont give details.... well now that i feel slightly better i think ill go... hope ur all having a good summer

iara