time for a change.....

well...today is thursday and i woke up with the full intention of going to school tho i didnt sleep at all well and i looked in the mirrior and my face was like all puffy and swollen....however was not a reaction to the Meningitise (sp??) needle i get yesterday in school...it as allergies....i hate having seasonal allergies..and my nose was stuffed and i felt terrible and i slept on mybeck wrong and the right side is all stiff and sore....(another sign or Men C) so yeah i spent the day at home...but i have a lot to do i have to study physics and practice my part for our romeo and juliet scene i play friar john ...th ehe....so yes for my change i have come to the conclusion that ppl ar pushing me out...maybe i scare them..aybe i dont ...maybe they just dont like me anymore....??.....but yes for teh change part perhaps if i was just a little bit more normal....then ppl would talk to me more and be willing to do more things with me.....now i do believe that one should never change who u are just to satisfy ur friends ....but the truth is i wont be doing that exactly cause i am and can be normal but i just enjoy being crazy and wacky sometimes...so i have someone i can be crazy with but with everybody else i will try my best to be normal.....this means no more popping int conversations with my "o my really ??" or laughing for no reason....or saying things for no reason so yes this is my change....we will see how it goes....dont worry i am not depressed for those of u who care out there just i am perfectly fine i just noticed the ppl are distancing them selves from me and maybe this is why...its just an experiment if my test proves apositive i will find a way to permanantly find a solution for it....i dont know what that will be yet seeing as i havent tried my expirament out as of yet but when and if that time comes we shall see...so yes...how is everybody out there good i hope...my conclusion is that ur all busy as nobody comments anymore or posts for that matter.....but i hope ur all well and healthy....well thats all for now ttyl

ur forever changing friend
-iara